Tuesday, May 1, 2012


I don't know if I have told you this, but I am small. 5' 1" to be exact. You would not believe the number of short jokes that I have heard in my short 23 years of life here on earth. Pun intended.

I have heard them all.

What I don't understand is why people feel the need to point it out all the time. Apparently they are under the assumption that I haven't noticed my height. That I have yet to recognize I am always staring up at people and using stools to grab things off the top shelf.

A couple of weeks ago someone made a joke in front to the whole class. The professor.

The joke went like this, "Hey- why don't you stand up?"

I was already standing.
Original right?

Normally remarks like this bounce right off, but not today. Not this time. I felt like I had just been punched. It was all I could do to stand in front of the class and make the presentation. After class ended I rushed out of the room.

My husband was waiting. As soon as I sat down in the car I started crying. I cried for a while.
A quiet cry.

He was kind. Trying to get me to open up, but sometimes you just have to cry alone. For me it makes it easier sometimes. The more you talk the more real the incident becomes.

That night I slept better than I had in days.
Crying does that for me. A good long cry.
I think that is what makes it so easy.
A cry purges you of emotion.
Makes the world seem cruel and kind.
But then you sleep.
And wake up.
And you move.
Cause of all the choices you have it is the only thing that makes sense.
Movement gives me purpose.


  1. some people are just a tad insensitive! I am five one also and I get jokes ahhhh lot. Even if they're not jokes,people just say stuff sometimes that they shouldn't! Like the other night at work this older lady asks me,are you a BYU student? I go yes I am. She goes,well you just look REALLY YOUNG. hahahah like come on. I was not in the mood for that. What did she want me to say back,You look really old?!

    And another one! I was getting fitted at Victoria's Secret and the lady goes,You're so small!! like uhhh thanks? hahahah.

    Sorry for this novel!! I just feel your pain of certain words that aren't mean but sometimes kind of sting!! You look very beautiful btw I love the outfit.

  2. ahhh, those comments will get to you sometimes. it bugs me how some traits/whatnot are "acceptable" to publicly mock in other would your professor ever call someone fat? No. but calling someone short is ok. and teasing someone for being skinny? nobody blinks at that. but that kind of stuff hurts people just as much! i always think people need to be a little more careful in that department. in fact, i blogged about it recently:

  3. I'm short too and have heard all of these! I've sort of just embraced it and not let it bother me, but sometimes it does get old, so I feel ya! Plus it doesn't help that my husband is a towering 6'1. :)

    xo, Yi-chia
    Always Maylee

  4. What a jerk of a professor. I'm sure he didn't mean anything but still you have to be super sensitive about things and should whether you're a professor or not. P.s. since your husby is so tall your kids will be the perfect in between height I'm sure. Good luck on spring/summer terms!

  5. oh my goodness, what a mean professor!
    I'm right there with ya sister... 5'2

    xo Jessica

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  6. I am barely 5'2", barely. I get comments all the time, I think the most recent ones are about my tiny feet, my husbands family always makes fun of me saying I have doll feet and that they can't tell my shoes and my 4 year old nieces shoes apart. It just gets old. I am the same way, when I cry I sleep so wonderfully, my whole body is just exhausted and wants to sleep.

  7. I'm sorry your feelings were hurt. :( And a word of caution...get all of your cathartic releases over with while you are young. Because when you're in your upper 30's {like this chick}, a whole night of crying equals a whole 3 days of beyond-puffy eyelids.

  8. I know, when you have a good cry, you sleep so good. Some days are like that. Atleast like you said, if feels like it purges you of emotion.

  9. I know exactly how you feel! I'm only 5'. I totally can relate to Miki, Everyone says my feet are tiny to me ALL the time! Also what katilda said no one would get away with calling somebody fat but they say all they want about us short people."I also don't understand why people feel the need to point it out all the time. Apparently they are under the assumption that I haven't noticed my height." I feel exactly the same way!! Thanks for sharing! It definatlly can sting sometimes... [or in elementry school when you have to line up by height at your ALWAYS the shortest person, thanks for letting me get my feelings out :D]